Showing posts with label acting. Show all posts
Showing posts with label acting. Show all posts

Monday, 30 August 2010

River Rushing...

Last night (or 2 nights ago, as it's now technically Monday morning - doesn't time fly when you're surfing t'internet?) for the first time in many years I sat and watched Stand By Me, the 1986 Rob Reiner film based on a Stephen King novella. I absolutely love the film, but it's one of those ones that I almost have to force myself to watch; not because of its content or because I can't stand it (quite the opposite), but because every time I see it, I'm reminded again of the tragic death of River Phoenix and how much talent he had...

All four of the young leads in Stand By Me are talented, and very much of their time and generation, but it was River who was the stand-out performer by about a country mile. It seems to be the most ironic thing in the world that so many of the great writers, actors and musicians I've grown up admiring have died far too early, either through self-inflicted means (Kurt Cobain and Sylvia Plath, for example), accidental overdoses (Heath Ledger) or drugs (Janis Joplin, Jimi Hendrix, River...) There seems to be some bizarre law of the universe that states that it is almost impossible for someone so gifted, so talented, with such a state of genius, to be able to live a normal, happy and healthy life: something always has to come along and screw it up, whether that be tragedy in their personal lives or their own untimely death when, like Heath and like River before him, they still had so much to give. And everytime I watch Stand By Me in particular (although Running On Empty, Indiana Jones and My Own Private Idaho also have this effect), I find myself sobbing at the wasted talent, his tragic death and of course the film itself. It is without a doubt (in my humble opinion at least) one of the greatest films ever made, and this is probably one of my favourite moments in the whole thing...



Of course, I have to declare a conflict of interest here. Not only did I grow up full of admiration for River's talents as an actor and musician, and for his stance on all things animal rights, environmental and political, but I was sort of a sucker for his looks, too. I know it's trite and it's shallow but it's true; for the love of the Gods, I was only eleven years old when he passed away after all, and the hormones were starting to kick in! But because I was so young, it was mainly after his death that I was left to rue what might have been and, yes, to mourn the beauty (physical, emotional and acting-wise) that had been taken from us. To this day, my heart breaks when I watch the campfire scene from 'My Own Private Idaho' for example, or the bit in 'Running On Empty' where his character sneaks into his girlfriend's house...River just shone out from the screen, completely mesmerising and utterly heartbreaking all at the same time.



So come Halloween, I shall make the time (amongst all the other festivities and ceremonies) to curl up with plenty of tissues and watch something River-related to honour his memory. It had better only be the one film, though; there aren't enough tissues in the world that could sustain me for the full 'Stand By Me, Running On Empty, My Own Private Idaho' cycle...may the Gods bless you, River, wherever you are...

Monday, 19 July 2010

The Show Must Go On...

Okay, so yesterday there was an epic fail on the blogging front again, but I have an exceptionally wonderful excuse up my sleeve. I was on the stage.

No, seriously. Stop sniggering. It's true - yours truly spent the day locked in the Palace Theatre in Southend having a mini-diva hissy fit before performing in 7 sketches as part of my Writers Group performance. So not only have I been dragged kicking and screaming into the light of day where my writing is concerned (i.e. showing it to someone who a) isn't my mother and b) I actually see as opposed to random people in cyberspace, now apparently I act as well. And considering I haven't acted since I was about 14, I actually really enjoyed it...

It's kind of amazing to think that in 3 months, not only have I joined a writing group and physically had to share my work with other people, I've also had my work performed in a proper theatre. It's totally bizarre, really. I was so scared before I went on stage to read my poem, even during the dress rehearsal in the afternoon, which was just in front of the other writers and actors, but once I'd got that one out of the way I relaxed and just did it. And it was brilliant. Apparently, even my mother was surprised - and that was a shock to me considering she knows what a drama queen I am on a daily basis!! But I now appear to have been convinced to audition for something else as well, so who knows? Maybe I'll give it a go and surprise myself!

But despite being a total ball of nervous energy yesterday, I got through it because of the brilliant friends I've made at the group, who are not only fabulous writers and performers but incredibly wonderful people as well. So...to Daisymay, Hannah and Dan, who stepped in and helped us out with performing and who are amazingly good; to Michael for helping us out, for acting and for almost deafening me in sketch 3; to Jack, for bullying me into acting in the first place and for managing to direct us all; and to my Three Musketeers Melissa, Danielle and Liam, who are fabulous beyond belief and put up with my complete manic-hysteria yesterday more than they should have done - thank you. I would never have got through it without you and hanging out with you over the past 3 months has been amazing. You guys are fabulous and I'm really, really pleased that I've met you! (Mel - we'll take over the world with our burlesque/pole-dancing double act!)

So here's to the next 3 months and the next performance...and I promise I'll try and be calmer next time!! xx